Deus Ex Machina

I've been thinking about a lot of things, and one of them was the existance of the Human race. Not "why do humans exist". That's pretty obvious, to me. Humans exist for the same reason any other animal does - to pass on your genes and thus continue the existance of your race. In order to pass on your genes, you must live. To live, you need to survive and adapt to your environment. And humans excel in that, don't they?

But they are so cruel, humans. They don't do anything too different from other animals; humans kill and are aggressive. Are humans cruel and animals not so much because humans are smart enough to realize what they're doing it and then they keep doing it anyway? Is the "knowing" what is making the act cruel, and not just the act itself?

I'd say so. When an animal kills, it normally doesn't do so with hate and anger. An animal will kill because it needs to. It needs to eat, or defend itself. It won't kill because it doesn't like the way you look, or because you think differently, or because it's bored. Only humans kill for sport - kill because they think it's fun.

Humans kill more out of emotion and sport than they kill for actual necessity. And that causes a lot of problems, namely for humans themselves. For example; humans thought that having wolves too close to their homes and farms was dangerous, because the wolves might harm them and their livestock. This is true, but the reaction was completely over the top. What did humans do?

They killed off most, if not all, of the wolve's population. I'll not go on the fact that humans are invading the environment of the wolves, but now they've got another problem that the idiots didn't think of until it was too late to really do anything. The wolves preyed upon deer, rabbits, and other animals. Now that there aren't any left, those other animals are growing too great in numbers, thus causing even more problems.

Brains, motherfuckers. Do you use them?

Now, I'm going to go on about what humans do to each other. I'll give a prime example. The Crucades. And no, I'm not going to link this to religion and Christianity. At least, not the way you think I will. The Crucades themselves had nothing to do with Christianity. It was to aquire more land and resources. What happened was that the church was using the people in that manner.

Back in those days, the church had at least equal, if not more, power than the government. And this Church/state government needed more land. But people don't want to fight, usually. At least, not unless they're extremely riled up, or there's something in it for them that they can see. Wars and such lead to death, and while everyone wants to kill everyone else dead, they don't want to die themselves.

Those were the days when only the rich were educated, and the poor man had to get what he could from the church. Of course the church is going to brainwash him, using religion and God, for their own ends. It was only too easy for them to say, "Look! Those DEMONS have got our Holy Land. We must fight to take it back. We will fight in the name of God!"

See, at that point, the people should have gone, "lol, wut?"

Christianity is one of those religions that promotes PEACE, not VIOLENCE. KILLING is VIOLENCE. Shit, even the first thing you see when you open the fucking book are the Ten Commandments. One of those happens to be Thou Shalt Not Kill.

THOU SHALT NOT KILL.

The Bible, assholes! Do you read it?!

No. It's ok to kill those other humans because they're DEMONS. They're DEMONS because they have a different culture, which allows them to adapt to their own environment, and because they look different from us.

Kill, kill, kill!

Right.

You fucking retards.

Instead of questioning what they should have questioned, or at least tried to counter the whole "kill the demons!" thing with logic, the people grabbed their gear, and set off to conquer the Holy Land.

They couldn't have been bothered to think, "If we're all God's children, why would He want us to go off and kill each other?"

No, that's too fucking hard, isn't it?

It's much easier to think about the GLORY and FAME one would recieve in the eyes of other humans and God if he were to defeat the DEMONS in the HOLY LAND. Nevermind that they're innocent people just trying to get by, the same as you. Nevermind that you're not supposed to go killing other people, especially when your religion says not to kill things.

Arrogant bastards.

And that's just one of many, many, many examples.

I'll rant later, however. If I get anymore upset by this, I might bust a vein.

60 Stationwagons of Kungfu Fury

No, really. That's the name of a band. A real band. As in, I can probably find their music somewhere
and upload it here or something for you all to listen to. A few hours ago, my husband awoke with a
killer toothache, and upon my inspection of his tooth, we both decided it would be wise to visit a 
detist ASAP and have it removed. Which is going to be as early as the dentist gets into his office,
so here I am, awake, with nothing to do.

My new layout will be available momentarily, as well. My friend had a lot of work to do for college,
so she wasn't able to work on the coding, which is perfectly fine. College is important, kiddies. 
Remember that.

Anyway, since I have to keep myself awake long enough to drive him there (he's in a LOT of pain,
so him driving would be a very bad idea), I thought I'd go listen to some random bands that I've
never really heard of, thus giving my blog an actual point beyond bitching about random things
that very few, if any, people care about.

A few nights ago, I found a random photo of a band named Mew. Fucking MEW. Like, the kitty
sound. And these are all men. And they're hot. And I think they're actually straight. That's amazing,
considering this guy can hit some pretty high octaves. So, like anyone who found a photo of a band with a weird band that they've never heard of before, I downloaded a few of their songs. They don't sound too bad, surprisingly. It's happy-lovey-dovey music, and it's not really rock.

Mew has a serious boy-band thing going on, but they are tolerable. It's cute. If you decide to actually listen to them, I recommend the songs, Snow Brigade and Special.

I also thought I'd listen to Jack Off Jill, since people who like a few of the same bands I like also like these guys. Or, should I say gals. The lead singer is definately female, and while her voice is nice, I don't think she's using it to the full effect. The music is reletively plain, and she isn't using her voice enough to complement it fully, so the music sounds really dull and slow. She half sings and half talks, and if she sang fully, it would probably be awesome. To fully judge them, however, I'd have to listen to some more of their music. The lead singer really reminds me of Courtny Love, though, and I'll be fucked if I know why. I was listening to Fear Of Dying.

Since I liked Evanescence's original album, I thought I would give her new album a whirl. Dear fucking God, what did she do? I either heard or read somewhere that her song, Call Me When You're Sober, is about the time that she dated
the lead singer from Seether, and they... uh... broke up? I mean... yeah, you write songs about stuff like that, typical... but. Ok, it sucked. Seether is much better at singing about drunken depression. Stick to singing about darkness and suicide. I can't even explain why it sucked. It just did; it seemed... just... I don't know. There was less power in the music than there was before.

Everyone has been raving and raving about Apocalyptica, so I thought I might finally give them a listen or two. I didn't before because I know they're notable for doing Metallica covers with... cellos? I'm not too fond of Metallica, so I was hesitant. I picked a Metallica song I knew and loved, so that they'd have half a chance at impressing me, since I'm a picky bitch. They actually performed For Whom The Bell Tolls fairly well. It's interesting to hear a song that's supposed to be done with electric guitars and bass and all that jazz solely on cellos, and I did think it sounded well. As talented as they are, it can get pretty annoying to listen to Metallica, basically, with different instruments, especially if you don't like them much in the first place.

And I'd better stop writing while I'm still ahead.

Still under construction

All right, so I'm still working on this thing. The layout, I mean. Have plenty to bitch about, as usual.
The layout of this thing should change dramatically in the next few days. I'll be designing the layout
images myself, and my friend will code them for me, since my attempts resulted in nothing getting
done, and me with a headache.

It was a semi-nice day today. When I woke up, it was sunny and pretty, and the birds wouldn't
shut the fuck up. Why the hell are those assholes still flying around here? Isn't it getting too cold
for those feathered wind bags? I wish they'd die off like insects do in the winter. I fucking hate
birds.

Well, ok, maybe I don't hate them, and I think they're cute and all when I'm not with a headache
and I'm in a good mood. Or when they don't wake me up with their ungodly noise. And yes,
chirping and tweeting are ungodly when you didn't sleep all night and haven't had a sip of caffine.

For some reason, my IE doesn't want to work correctly. Sometimes, it spazzes out and refuses
to read any kind of code, no matter how pretty it is, or how dirty it is. I'd normally blame the
fact that I probably got a crappy download, but it's the kind that came with this computer. So,
either that means that IE is crappy in general (shut the fuck up, I'm in denial) or my personal
version somehow got corrupted. I'm not sure which.

It seems to display fine under Opera, and I assume that since this site recommends Firefox, it
works fine with Firefox. I also use a higher res than the standed recommendation of 800x600.
I figure that people won't really read this piece of shit, so I don't have to worry about pleasing
people with 800x600 (I use 1024x768), but my friend insists that the page should be viewable
for those with 800x600.

I'm having a really hard time designing the main image for the layout. I want to make
something creative and original, and I absolutely refuse to use anything someone already drew.
I insist on drawing my own layout, which means it's going to look like shit. I drew a feathered
black-and-white lady, but I severely fucked up on her chin and forehead, so she looks... uh..
yeah. However, I'll end up using Strange Lady if I can't think of anything else to draw.

And I'm actually too tired to further bitch.

At least for now.

A blog = very yes

All right, so I've decided that Gaia isn't good enough for my sophisticated style of ranting and bitching.More like that they don't like it when every other word is "fuck" and you're bitching about things that no one's really heard of. Ever. And if an idiot happens upon my journal, and doesn't like what I'm bitching about, or they disagree with me, or something else, I have no right to really say anything to them. That would likely be because any response containing what I would consider remotely profane is enough to get me an IP ban.

Or sent to Hell. One of the two.

Though, to be honest, it's because I respect the mods there. I couldn't give a rat's ass about the rules, in reality. In fact, I disagree with a good amount of them. If someone insults me, I see no reason why I shouldn't be able to make them cry. Maybe not cry, but to let them know I'm not pleased. I wouldn't do something like that if I deserved the insult. And I know when I'm being enough of a pompous ass to know and admit that I deserve an insult.

Anyway, I've decided to make this blog for another reason, too: I need some form of release. I need to write down what I see, feel, hear, taste, smell, and touch. To get the emotion, or whatever feeling out of my body and somewhere else so that I don't burst. However, I know that me being an emo bitch about every little thing will probably not only annoy the fuck out of anyone reading this, but it'll likely be typical and rather boring.

So, I will do other things besides bitching about how much my life sucks. I occasionally watch movies. I will rate them,debate them, and talk about them here. I listen to music too much not to find something to praise or bitch about it, so you'll likely find a lot of that, too. I read a lot, when I've got time, and I can write about a particularly awful story, or awe-inspiring tale as well. This will definately get a lot of game reviews, both online and single-player games, since I play both a lot, as well as being someone in the industry.

Lastly, this looks really plain at the moment; I'm using one of the default templates. I plan to magically and spontainiously teach myself some HTML and CSS to make this look nice and pretty. I'm also going to enlist the help of my friend, since I doubt my ability to learn HTML and CSS. When I've got that all somewhat figured out, I'll add more shit to amuse you.

For now, it's just me being angry.

Deal with it.

Edit: All right, so I figured out that this thing isn't really just HTML. Or not really HTML at all. It's CSS.Do you know how fucking annoying CSS is when you don't even know HTML? After staring at the template code for close to an hour, I stopped going, "lol, wut?" long enough to figure out how to remove the underline from the links, which is an easy code by itself. I've made some images and I'm working on a background, so hopefully this will look decent sometime in the near future.